The End is Nigh?

Well....2016. What can I say. Fucking piece of Shit! People suck. Humanity is a thing of the past. This is what I brought my autistic babies into. Like it isn't hard enough being of mixed race but to be developmentally disabled too. I wish I could give them a better life. Instead I have put them in a life of grief, destitution, and not even a fighting chance for a happy life. I am in a grip of despair and depression with a fucked up endocrine system and now my poor Morgana has diabetes and possibly depression like me. Soon her poor thyroid may give out. Hopefully fibromyalgia will give her a pass. I am serving a life sentence of pain with the occasional ups that seem to be disappearing. God willing I will be alive next year to post of happier things and not a struggle to stay alive for them. Or a struggle to even put a smile to give them a sense of security. God bless those who read my blog. My end of my faith is Nigh. Maybe the end is Nigh.

Life happens! O-o

So how about an even longer break from blogging. Its 2013 and it started with schooling for me and career change. My niece needed help in her salon because she is the only nail tech. So off to school I went. Long commutes and long days I finished in 3 1/2 months. Now I'm posted up in the salon hoping to build a clientele and trying my best not to become discouraged. I do a lot of self-flogging. I enjoy doing it but then I have had some moments when I feel afraid of a bad rapport for her salon. I feel overwhelmed sometimes because clients and my niece should get the best quality service and I'm not 100% able to always give them that. If I really give up/quit I would be letting my family and my niece down. So I trudge on and do my best. 

On the nigglet side of things...

Morgana has hit womanhood (aka started her period). She has expressed that she would like to manage it and not have it stop. I'm not sure either way on the subject but we shall see. Mr. Iain has glasses now. Hopefully it will help him in school.

As for the hubby's....

They are doing fine for the most part. Jon has been doing the cooking and cleaning. Jason took the summer off from school. Still waiting to see if he will be getting his 100% from the VA. I hope so because I believe that his doctors are right about him not working anymore. I hope that all will be well for the rest of the year. *fingers crossed and praying a lot* 

And the hits just keep on rolling...

I am back to blogging. I know I have taken a some what long break. Some battles won. Some lost. And some, well let's just say we are waiting to see. I personally need to really blog during this break but I didn't seem to think about it. I guess because hardly anyone reads my blog. That shouldn't have mattered because it is more like my diary than anything and who knows who will stumble along and read it and it could help them when they needed it. So when something I feel the need to vent I will simple get on the computer, phone, Ipad and put it on here and we will both see how it pans out in life. Sounds like a deal? Cool.

SO....to catch you up. Summer went pretty well. Kids were entertained as well as everyone else in the house. I learned that no matter what I do my Primary Care Physicians will end up pissing me off and making me not want to go to the see them. I did, however, take a trip to visit my sister and 2nd mom who I haven't seen in years. (note to self: Traveling to Arizona in August is not happening again!) Not the most eventful summer but still it is better that way sometimes.

Now the nigglets are back in school. YAY!! All Day School!!! Iain started 1st grade at a new school this year. He is in a program that is at his speed and seems to be doing great. I am somewhat eager to discuss with his teacher his progress. That is one thing that I have noticed is that the progress made at school is hardly ever displayed at home. Why that is I don't know but just as long as progress is being made I don't question. Just like if they are playing quietly together or separately do not question just do a Depeche Mode and enjoy the silence.

Hubby 1 is very helpful and sometimes to helpful but I appreciate him greatly. Still need to see about him getting some medical because if he breaks down...we are all screwed! Hubby 2 is back in school and while I do enjoy him being readily available for anything I enjoy it when he is able to occupy his mind a bit more and who knows where this will go?

As for me.....
I have had this urge to figure out what I like to do to occupy my time. I thought that I would do a couple of things and see where they panned out. So right now I make gourmet dog and cat treats, cupcakes and cakes for pet birthdays. I like doing that but it is a good thing I make large batches because after a while I end up very tired. Fibromyalgia can be a bitch. I also tried my hand at some knitting but that was abruptly put on hold due to Juicy chewing up my wooden knitting needles. But the one crafty thing that I love the most is making fascinators, hair clips and headbands. It is very fun and very relaxing for me anyways. I really like seeing what my mind is going to throw out there and I actually do need the outlet.

Now you have been updated and I will continue to let you know what happens in our house in the middle of our street. Ta-ta!

Did You Lose A Set of Steak Knives? The Sequel

So this is quite amazing. Iain started his ABA therapy after or about the time that Jason retired. We didn't receive a bill from the company that provided it. On the other hand the company that provided Morgana's ABA therapy sent us one. $1700 for a little less than a months ABA therapy. Hooray. Not really. So the Social Security that she receives is gonna go toward paying off this bill. Please God let them pass that bill through the House of Representatives already.

HNWIC Say What?

Normally I would be blogging about the nigglets (2 and 4 legged) but today is different. I know that we are striving for a healthy America. Got that. But here is my problem with this.

Problem #1
Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem...stop it already!! Not everyone can afford you and/or your food no matter which singer you have pushing your product. And by the way why are they all black singers? Really!!

Problem #2
Take this pill, that pill. Use this equipment, that equipment. Do this, do that. ENOUGH!!

Problem #3
Biggest Loser. Hmm. Public humiliation to lose weight. I don't think so!

Problem #4
With all these problems 1-3 being on TV we now have all these skinny as bitches saying "I'm fat" when really all they need is to tone and not actually lose weight thus making those friends who actually are feeling angry and bitter.

As a whole America I would like to point out 2 things. Badgering Americans to lose weight is only going to have the opposite effect. Not only is it going to have the opposite effect but also mentally damage not only those who are overweight but also those who aren't. Secondly, not all can be skinny. Some of us are not built to be a skinny minnie. Bone structure doesn't always agree with BMI. I am suppose to, according to BMI, be 125lbs. If I were to weigh 125lbs I would look sickly. I could also try and try to get down to that weight but it will never happen. The lowest I can go is 193 at most. So what does it all boil down to....stop badgering America into losing weight it will happen when we want it not when you guilt us into it or shame us into it. Not all can be a size 2 - genetics doesn't always work in a way that is suitable for societal norms or pressures. All this pressure to lose weight is not helping Americans to be healthy. It will cause a rise in depression and/or suicides though. If that is what we are aiming for- so far so good.

What are you up to now??

I love my kids. They make me laugh sometimes. Jon and I are sitting out in the living room watching The Voice and just as it's about go back to the show we hear "it's alive...alive!!" We started laughing but we both know that we shouldn't go back and investigate. We might find that they made their version of Frankenstein. Gotta bite the bullet sometime. BANZAI!!

Did You Lose A Set of Steak Knives?

Today we were informed that due to the fact that my husband was medically retired from the Army Morgana and Iain will no longer be receiving ABA Therapy which has been vital to them.  I had called Tricare and asked if it would be covered even though my husband was medically retiring from the Army. They told me yes. In fact, it is NOT. Turns out that because my husband is no longer active duty means they are no longer enrolled in the ECHO program, which is the only program that covers ABA; therefore all therapy received after his retirement would all have to be paid out of pocket. Morgana's ABA Therapy for a month cost about $2150. I have no idea how much Iain's will be. I need everyone to please check out this link ( http://cmkaa.org/ ) and send a message out to your Congressman or woman. This is not just for Morgana and Iain but for all medically discharged or retired men and women who have children with Autism and need these services. If my husband was medically able to stay in the military he would have. Why should our children be the ones paying the price too for his sacrifice to our country? They can have their steak knives back. Tell the Pentagon and the rest of the military that this therapy is not just an educational therapy. This therapy is also behavioral and is necessary to help them become an independent member of society.